The gift via Humility...

I was praying this morning, in the shower, (for I find that is a regular place in my life I can count on), and I had an epiphany- I will not, nor cannot ever, ever be all that God wants me to on this earth, no matter how hard I try, and yet, despite my many, many failings He only sees me as perfect through the blood of His Son... I cannot help but fail and He cannot help but love, and forgive and pour out underserved mercy to me, His child, for that's who I am, and that's who He is. How am I ever supposed to understand the depth of that kind of love? How can I accept such a gift when I’m clearly so undeserving? I can understand the difficulty of those who don’t know Him, trying to grasp His free gift of salvation, for though it is free it comes with such a huge price- first from His Son, Jesus Christ, who died for our sin, my sin, and second from us, from me, for to accept this gift I have to humble myself, and admit I need it, that I am wrong, and am a sinner. Humbling ourselves is never easy, especially for those who have things, for we must admit that we are less than we have worked and striven to prove ourselves to be... Humility is difficult; false humility is easy. To truly humble ourselves, to humble our hearts is where we meet the Father. He is omnipresent, and He is is always at the place of thbroken and tender heart...