Saturday, February 28, 2009

A Broken Heart- The final Chapter...

This past week I was reading through some of my past blogs and ran across one from last February 24th, (2008) entitled "A Broken Heart"... I was amazed to read my feelings in that blog were exactly then where I found myself just a few weeks ago- same feelings, same relationship. Only this time I called it quits. This time it was time to walk away. After two years in a relationship with someone who was emotionally closed off, who is afraid to be vulnerable, who is afraid to love, I called it a day. But I've learned...



I learned that no matter how hard you might want a relationship to work, no matter how much you might love, there is no guarantee of success if the feelings aren't mutual. No matter how hard you might try, no matter how much you might give, it will never be enough if your mate, your partner is not willing to invest emotionally also.



It was difficult to walk away, because our relationship was built on a great friendship. I will sorely miss that friendship, and indeed, I was asked if we could continue that friendship when I said I thought it was time for me to move on- but alas, as good as that friendship was the reality is it cannot continue, at least the way it was. You see, a relationship built on a great friendship is on rock solid ground, but a friendship that evolves into a relationship rarely survives, because one cannot go back, and once you've allowed yourself to be vulnerable with another, to love another, it hurts far too much to try and "just be friends", especially when one or both moves on to another relationship. So the reality is it will wither and eventually die. But I am at peace with my decision, for the time has come for me to protect my heart, to search for one who is willing to give, as well as receive, love.



Sometimes things just don't work out how we want them to. Sometimes you can have two really good people, who really like each other, who get along great, who seem so compatible, and still not have it work. It comes down to a willingness to be vulnerable- by both...

I think I need to start writing more consistently again...

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